Posts Tagged ‘spiritual work’

I really liked this simple, eloquent explanation of what awareness is, why we would want to be aware and how to do it… a marvelous short video about a profound, life-changing practice of experiencing the world.


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Would you rather live in a world where there was no poverty, starvation, war, murder…. wouldn’t you rather live in peace?

I think peace begins with the individual. As individuals, we may think we can’t change the state of the world. But we can bring about a positive change in our own life, and in our relationships with the people in our lives. We can lead a more peaceful, spiritual life, and together we can change the state of the world. This change begins internally, when we change ourselves.

Society is simply a sum of the individuals in it. It is a reflection of who we are, and what we have inside of ourselves. The lack of peace in the world is a reflection of the lack of peace inside the people of the world.

Most would say they are peaceful people, and are not responsible for the worlds problems and atrocities. I used to say this myself; “Hey I’m one of the nice people!” But when I observe myself, I find there are many negative subconscious states inside me, anger, greed, ill-will etc. For example, the people I love most (my family, partner etc) have a knack for pushing my buttons and I can get frustrated and even angry at them, usually feeling bad about it afterwards. I have greed: I often eat WAY too much on Christmas Day feeling positively ill afterwards. I have been known to get impatient in peak hour traffic when I am running late. If someone does me wrong I can turn downright nasty, even if it is just me replaying the scene in my head with what I would like to have said or done to that person…. I could go on and on. All these states are a far cry from ‘peace’ within.

Now these may seem like harmless things, far from engaging in war and killing people. But we all have these negative states inside of us, and given the right circumstances, these subconscious states are what drive these global atrocities.

To find peace we need to change, we need to eliminate these negative subconscious states within, and increase our consciousness. If people can change themselves, then the whole world can change, because society is just a sum of the people in it.

I really do believe change does begin with the individual, and permanent lasting world peace is dependent on the changes we as individuals make. This is why I am trying to change.

Here are some very insightful talks about the state of the world today and the state of humanity, with some chilling statistics that really make you think.

Wouldn’t you rather live in peace?

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Our internal spiritual work is just that, it’s internal. It is something that happens inside of us. Other people can’t see us doing it, other people can’t do it for us either. It is something we need to do ourselves, within ourselves.

Our internal work is not merely belonging to a particular church or group.  Believing a certain religion isn’t the same as working on ourselves internally. We can gain strength, support and inspiration from others, but that is not enough; other people can’t do our internal work for us!

It doesn’t matter how many books we have read, how much intellectual knowledge we hold, what people have told us, how much we think we know, what we believe in, or even what we don’t. It doesn’t matter how much we think what we believe in is right, or if it even is.

Our internal work is beyond all of that. It happens inside of us, in the moment, when we make the effort to do it. It won’t happen by itself; we need to be active in the process, we need to do the work. We need to observe ourselves, understand ourselves, and work on ourselves internally.

Anything that happens outside of us doesn’t matter, other than to show us what is within. Our work cannot be taken away from us by any person or circumstance, lest we chose not to do it.

I feel an incredible strength right now. I have my work and I chose to do it 🙂

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It is said that you cannot progress spiritually unless you help others to do so, and through helping others you receive help in return. This post is about just that; helping others spiritually.

There was a girl whom I used to manage at my previous job, who I will refer to as ‘M’. She was a lovely girl, a very hard worker and a great employee. One day, M told me she wasn’t feeling well and needed to go lay down in the sick bay.

After a little while I stopped in to check on her. I found her sitting there, crying. So I sat next to her and asked her if she was okay. She wasn’t. She was going through some difficult personal circumstances, and she began to pour her heart out to me about the situation she was in. She was very sad.

This was the beginning of me becoming her confidant.

Over the next few weeks she would confide in me about her situation, and I felt enormous compassion for her. I would listen and try to offer her the best advice that I could; “Sometimes life presents situations that are very painful, but although they are difficult they offer an opportunity to learn. These situations my seem unfair, but if we can see the lessons they present, we can use them to grow and change to become better people”. At first she didn’t understand what I was trying to tell her, but that didn’t matter. I was someone whom she could talk to, and I didn’t judge her. I was just there for her, and it was comforting to her to have someone to talk to.

She felt very isolated from her friends; she said they judged her situation and their harsh comments made her feel even worse. But instead of judging her, I would try to offer techniques on how to deal with the feelings she was experiencing. I taught her about awareness of the present moment, and practices like ‘awareness walks’ which I personally found very helpful.

I shared with her some difficult past experiences that I had endured, and the techniques I used to overcome them. I had learned the techniques at the Gnostic classes I was taking, and encouraged her to come with me. She never came to the classes, but she listened to what I told her.

Eventually I gave her a book, called “The Peace of the Spirit Within’, which explained these techniques in much greater detail. She didn’t read the book at first, but she continued to confide in me, and I continued to tell her about the techniques that had helped me so much in my own life.

Not long after I left that job, and I moved away to America. But M and I remained good friends and kept in contact. She continued to confide in me, and I continued to confide in her.

I shared with her some of the more esoteric experiences I had as a result of the practices I was doing (such as astral travel), and she also read about them on this blog. She became more and more interested as time went on.

One day I sent her another book by the same author called “When I go to Sleep – A Course in Astral Travel & Dreams”, which is essentially a guide to have out-of-body experiences (otherwise referred to as ‘astral travel’).

By this stage she was keenly interested, so she read the book and practiced the techniques with great enthusiasm. Within a couple of weeks she had her own first out-of-body experience! And I was SO happy for her.

She was so excited! After that she began having numerous out-of body experiences. She reminded me of how I was when I first discovered these techniques and began to have my own experiences. And her out-look on life began to dramatically change, just as it had for me!

She began taking the classes I had told her about, and her life took on a new meaning. It was refreshing to have a friend that had experienced some of what I had experienced; you can talk about these concepts with people, but it is not the same as sharing actual experiences with someone. We both understood. And it was profound.

But ironically as her inner work grew in strength, my own had taken a serious decline. I had fallen into entropy, and my inner work had lost its luster. The enthusiasm I once had for the practices seemed so distant to me, and I had become despondent in my spiritual work. I didn’t have the strength to practice, and despite of all the marvelous experiences I had received (many of which are described in this blog), I actually felt like giving up the work; it felt like it was all too hard.

This is how it has been for me until recently in fact.

Not long ago M sent me a message that she saw me in the astral and we flew together. But I couldn’t remember it. In fact I wan’t even remembering most of my dreams at this point, let alone having conscious astral experiences. But she did, and she knew that I was not aware during the experience.

Just at the point that I was about to give up, she became a wind beneath my sails. She made me realize what I was missing, and she became an amazing source of strength and inspiration to me.

We had a phone conversation, following which she sent me this text:

M:Light some incense and do a practice!! Hope it all goes well and am so happy we caught up! Love you! Hope to see you in the astral tonight!”

ME: “It was great catching up with you too! You’ve given me so much inspiration to pick up my game… when you told me you had that astral experience with me flying, it was when I was at my lowest and I was so ‘asleep’. But you telling me about it has given me the strength to wake up. It’s time to wake up now, thank you so much!”

M: No worries!!! That’s an awesome thing eh!!! Yay, so glad to be of help (you’re the one who showed me/introduced me to all this) so it is my pleasure and I hope you start getting experiences again!! And start a dream journal starting tomorrow!!!”

It is said that you cannot progress spiritually unless you help others to do so, and through helping others you receive help in return. Now it’s my turn.

Thank you M. I love you.

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wedding ringsI got married a couple of months ago, and I also moved countries to be with my new husband! Yes this has been a big change, and the reason for my temporary hiatus from blogging. But as things are settling down it seems I am back 🙂

Marriage is a wonderful thing; it’s a partnership that creates a marvelous opportunity for learning and for inner change.

I have found some interesting things since being married. In particular I can see how my own inner states directly effect my husband’s reactions to me; in that sense he is like a mirror for what I have going on within.

This morning was a good example of this. I was mildly annoyed at something he did (which was really quite incidental) and it caught me off-guard. Instead of observing this negative inner state and applying the elimination technique that I learned, I acted on it and scolded him.

Not long after, it became apparent that I had stirred up frustration in him and his tone of voice became short and sharp. This intern stirred up more annoyance within me as my pride didn’t like being spoken to in that tone of voice…

…But then I caught myself and realized what was happening; we were both getting caught in a negative spiral, which was sparked by my initial mild annoyance. I was then able to apply the elimination techniques to the negativity that was mounting within me, and instead of further escalating the situation I was able to respond with love and kindness.

It seems to always be this way – as soon as I get any kind of negative reaction from my husband, I can reflect back and instantly see that this was sparked from something negative within me. He has become like a barometer for me to know how I am doing internally.

If gone unchecked this is how fights begin; with one partner sparking negativity in the other, which intern feeds more negativity back. The marvelous thing about this spiritual work is you can break that negative cycle. It gives insight into how these things work internally, and provides an opportunity to change. It gives rise to the ability to act in a more intelligent way, instead of being pulled along at the whim of these internal subconscious negative drives (‘egos’).

Hopefully I’ll be able to share more insights with you as I go along we go along!

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