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I am very lucky. My Husband is very supportive of my pursuit of Gnosis. He has no interest in it himself, however he made the effort to investigate it and to learn about what it is that interests me, because he loves me.

He was open-minded in his approach. He read the books and took one of the courses. He tried the practices, came to the Gnostic Center, and even attended a couple of retreats (in fact one of which ended up being our honeymoon). He incorporated the techniques of awareness and self-observation into his daily life and found them to be beneficial, so much so he even gave the book ‘The Peace of the Spirit Within‘ to a friend who was deploying to Iraq because he thought the techniques would help him there.

After all of that, my Husband decided Gnosis wasn’t for him. After looking into it he thinks it’s a worthwhile pursuit and experienced first-hand how the practices can benefit one’s daily life (and on occasion still uses some of them). But he is simply not interested in esoteric pursuits. He doesn’t particularly care what’s beyond this physical world, doesn’t care what is beyond this life, isn’t interested in the meaning of it all and doesn’t care to awaken. He is a true Agnostic; he doesn’t believe or disbelieve in the Divine, and while he is open to the possibility, it is simply not important to him to find out.

For me, a person with such a yearning to investigate and know these things, I find it perplexing that someone else can have no such desire. How could you not!?! But I guess he sees my point of view the same way. I wish he was interested, but the choice is his. That’s free will and I can’t impose my will upon him.

I call him “my clay man”, he loves his clay world. He loves his physical pursuits and his physical goals. He is always talking about things that I consider mundane, but I listen with interest and engage in his conversation, and I support him, because I love him. We support each other, and that is so important.

Unfortunately some people aren’t as lucky as me. There are many who have spouses or family that don’t support their Gnostic pursuits, and some that are even against it. They haven’t taken the time to really investigate what the inner work is all about, they haven’t explored the practices, and haven’t approached it with an open mind. As such they don’t understand it, and as it often happens when someone doesn’t understand something, it can be strange and even foreboding to them.

You see, a Gnostic life is very different from the way mainstream society operates. Gnostics value spiritual richness, seeking to investigate esoteric mysteries beyond the physical world through practices such as meditation, astral projection (aka out-of-body experiences) and studying dreams. Material wealth is of little value, and physical desires are a distraction which keep one locked into ‘the wheel of life’. A Gnostic strives to be in the present moment, observing one’s thoughts and emotions instead of being governed by them. Once what is within is seen and understood, one can begin to slowly change with the goal to become more spiritual – to reach enlightenment.

In stark contrast, society values material wealth, worldly pursuits and physical pleasures. Success is measured by what you own, how much money you make and/or how powerful you are. The masses seek pleasure and avoid pain, and live their lives driven by desires, emotions, reactions and perceptions, largely unaware of how their psyche operates. Further, they are even unaware that they are unaware!

For this reason it can be very difficult for a person who decides to pursue a Gnostic way of life. People don’t understand why you no longer wish to go clubbing or drinking, or why you lose interest in material pursuits. They think it strange that you stop engaging in their gossip, bitching and complaining, and can’t comprehend how you can be calm and peaceful in situations that solicit emotional reactions in them; why you stop acting the way ‘normal’ people do.

One of my Gnostic friends had to completely hide his esoteric activities from his family and practice in secret and isolation. He lived in the Philippines, which is largely a Christian/Catholic culture that is also very superstitious. His family likened practices such as meditation, mantras and astral travel to that of witchcraft or devil worship.

He discovered Gnosis by way of a dream, but it was like no other he had ever had. He received a spiritual teaching in that dream, and when he woke he knew it was something real and something he had to investigate. He got on the internet and searched and searched until he found Belsebuub’s teachings, and immediately he knew this is what he was shown in his dream.

He didn’t know anyone else who practiced Gnosis, and so he began to practice on his own, in secret, with no support from anyone around him. He practiced diligently, and through his practices he began to investigate the esoteric side to life and received mystical experiences. He tried to broach it with his friends and family, but quickly learned from their reactions that it was not something he could share with them.

He studied all the material and became an advanced student, and the only support he had was that of the on-line community (which is where we first became acquainted). Then in 2008 I had the good fortune of meeting this remarkable young man in person when I spent two months in the Philippines with work.

Every weekend he would travel a great distance from where he lived to come and see me, and while the rest of my work colleagues would go shopping and partying, I spent all my time with him. We would talk about Gnosis and esoteric things and shared our experiences. We would take awareness walks together, do meditations, concentration practices and mantras, and he was SO happy to have someone else he could relate to and practice with.

He told me about his challenges and how difficult it was for him to practice Gnosis in isolation, and lonely. He was extremely close to his family and wished he could share it with them, but there was no way they would understand or accept his way of life. So he began to pray to the Divine to send someone so he wouldn’t be alone in his spiritual quest; a teacher, someone who would start a Gnostic center there in the Philippines so he could be with other Gnostics. And while I was not a teacher and was only going to be there a short time, I had just begun the teacher’s course, and our time together meant so much to him that he believed his prayers had been answered. I felt so much compassion for him, and admiration for his strength and determination.

I am very lucky. My Husband is very supportive of my pursuit of Gnosis, and I couldn’t imagine how difficult it would be not to have his support.

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It is said that you cannot progress spiritually unless you help others to do so, and through helping others you receive help in return. This post is about just that; helping others spiritually.

There was a girl whom I used to manage at my previous job, who I will refer to as ‘M’. She was a lovely girl, a very hard worker and a great employee. One day, M told me she wasn’t feeling well and needed to go lay down in the sick bay.

After a little while I stopped in to check on her. I found her sitting there, crying. So I sat next to her and asked her if she was okay. She wasn’t. She was going through some difficult personal circumstances, and she began to pour her heart out to me about the situation she was in. She was very sad.

This was the beginning of me becoming her confidant.

Over the next few weeks she would confide in me about her situation, and I felt enormous compassion for her. I would listen and try to offer her the best advice that I could; “Sometimes life presents situations that are very painful, but although they are difficult they offer an opportunity to learn. These situations my seem unfair, but if we can see the lessons they present, we can use them to grow and change to become better people”. At first she didn’t understand what I was trying to tell her, but that didn’t matter. I was someone whom she could talk to, and I didn’t judge her. I was just there for her, and it was comforting to her to have someone to talk to.

She felt very isolated from her friends; she said they judged her situation and their harsh comments made her feel even worse. But instead of judging her, I would try to offer techniques on how to deal with the feelings she was experiencing. I taught her about awareness of the present moment, and practices like ‘awareness walks’ which I personally found very helpful.

I shared with her some difficult past experiences that I had endured, and the techniques I used to overcome them. I had learned the techniques at the Gnostic classes I was taking, and encouraged her to come with me. She never came to the classes, but she listened to what I told her.

Eventually I gave her a book, called “The Peace of the Spirit Within’, which explained these techniques in much greater detail. She didn’t read the book at first, but she continued to confide in me, and I continued to tell her about the techniques that had helped me so much in my own life.

Not long after I left that job, and I moved away to America. But M and I remained good friends and kept in contact. She continued to confide in me, and I continued to confide in her.

I shared with her some of the more esoteric experiences I had as a result of the practices I was doing (such as astral travel), and she also read about them on this blog. She became more and more interested as time went on.

One day I sent her another book by the same author called “When I go to Sleep – A Course in Astral Travel & Dreams”, which is essentially a guide to have out-of-body experiences (otherwise referred to as ‘astral travel’).

By this stage she was keenly interested, so she read the book and practiced the techniques with great enthusiasm. Within a couple of weeks she had her own first out-of-body experience! And I was SO happy for her.

She was so excited! After that she began having numerous out-of body experiences. She reminded me of how I was when I first discovered these techniques and began to have my own experiences. And her out-look on life began to dramatically change, just as it had for me!

She began taking the classes I had told her about, and her life took on a new meaning. It was refreshing to have a friend that had experienced some of what I had experienced; you can talk about these concepts with people, but it is not the same as sharing actual experiences with someone. We both understood. And it was profound.

But ironically as her inner work grew in strength, my own had taken a serious decline. I had fallen into entropy, and my inner work had lost its luster. The enthusiasm I once had for the practices seemed so distant to me, and I had become despondent in my spiritual work. I didn’t have the strength to practice, and despite of all the marvelous experiences I had received (many of which are described in this blog), I actually felt like giving up the work; it felt like it was all too hard.

This is how it has been for me until recently in fact.

Not long ago M sent me a message that she saw me in the astral and we flew together. But I couldn’t remember it. In fact I wan’t even remembering most of my dreams at this point, let alone having conscious astral experiences. But she did, and she knew that I was not aware during the experience.

Just at the point that I was about to give up, she became a wind beneath my sails. She made me realize what I was missing, and she became an amazing source of strength and inspiration to me.

We had a phone conversation, following which she sent me this text:

M:Light some incense and do a practice!! Hope it all goes well and am so happy we caught up! Love you! Hope to see you in the astral tonight!”

ME: “It was great catching up with you too! You’ve given me so much inspiration to pick up my game… when you told me you had that astral experience with me flying, it was when I was at my lowest and I was so ‘asleep’. But you telling me about it has given me the strength to wake up. It’s time to wake up now, thank you so much!”

M: No worries!!! That’s an awesome thing eh!!! Yay, so glad to be of help (you’re the one who showed me/introduced me to all this) so it is my pleasure and I hope you start getting experiences again!! And start a dream journal starting tomorrow!!!”

It is said that you cannot progress spiritually unless you help others to do so, and through helping others you receive help in return. Now it’s my turn.

Thank you M. I love you.

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christ5Despite my family being non-religious and us never going to church, as a young child I had much love for God and Jesus. I didn’t intellectually analyze what or who God or Jesus were, they just were, I just felt felt love for them. I felt this love went both ways too. It was simple, and it was pure. I can’t remember who explained them to me, maybe it was Mum, or maybe it was religious instruction at primary school. But I remember the feeling.

One Easter when it was way past my bedtime, Dad fell asleep on the couch and in glee I stayed up to watch T.V. Being Easter there was a movie on about Jesus (it was probably Jesus of Nazareth, I’m not sure). Anyway what started off as glee turned to horror as I watched what we did to him and how he suffered on the cross – up until then I knew ‘he died for our sins’ but I had no clue we tortured and murdered him. I was absolutely mortified and traumatized by it, I felt so much shame for the human race and what we had done. I cried about it for days, and I remember Mum’s frustration at Dad for being “irresponsible” and letting me see that movie when I should have been in bed.

As I grew up though, I slowly lost that loving feeling, and the word ‘Christ’ began to represent something to almost be ashamed of. It certainly wasn’t ‘cool’ to be Christian put it that way. All the Christians I came across were a very peculiar type of people – they would preach about sin and heaven and hell, yet they themselves were some of the most judgmental, unforgiving people I had ever met. Often they were extremely fanatical about their faith, even aggressive about it, and the term “Christian” became tainted for me.

I began to question the Orthodox view of God and Christ, things just didn’t add up. How is it fair that these individuals who called themselves ‘Christian’, who were such horrible people underneath their preaching, go to heaven because they went to church on Sundays to be forgiven for their sins, when others of different faith would go to hell, no matter what they were like inside? They could be saints and the door would be shut to them. Where is the love in that? That just didn’t make sense! That wasn’t the God or Jesus I loved as a child, and eventually I turned my back on them, just as one dismisses Santa Clause when you discover he was never real in the first place.

But in recent years I have began to learn a different view of what ‘Christ’ actually is, different to what is portrayed in mainstream Orthodox Christianity. And the teachings of Jesus now make a whole lot more sense in this new context.

To truly live without sin is to eliminate it within, to fundamentally change. It is not enough to outwardly act a certain way if within you there is negativity, hatred, judgment, anger, frustration and so on. These negative aspects need to be removed so that the truly spiritual can manifest in their place.

Many people consider themselves ‘spiritual people’ and ‘good people’ or even ‘Christian’, however if they were to observe what is actually within themselves, they would be horrified by the harsh reality of who they really are. You can profess to love Christ all you like, but in those moments of negativity towards another human being (and we all have those moments) what is manifesting is far from spiritual.

By observing ourselves, we can see this harsh reality, and we can begin to change. With the help of the Divine, we can eliminate these negative aspects and increase our capacity for love, peace and to truly experience the Divine. But we cannot change what we cannot see.

The Christ is a Divine force that can live within. Jesus had this force within him and was teaching us how we could incarnate this force within ourselves, how we can change and become truly spiritual people. And what I am talking about goes far beyond simply going to church or ‘believing’ in God or Jesus.

“Now, since it has been said that you are my twin and true companion, examine yourself, and learn who you are, in what way you exist, and how you will come to be. Since you are called my brother, it is not fitting that you be ignorant of yourself … For he who has not known himself has known nothing, but he who has known himself has at the same time already achieved knowledge about the depth of the all.”

Jesus,

The Nag Hammadi Library

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global-warming1The current state of the world is deeply saddening. We are dropping bombs on each other, people are starving, we are suffocating the planet; destroying our forests, poisoning our oceans and killing our wildlife. It’s just terrible. At any given moment just take a look at the headlines on cnn.com, it’s like a crazy horror movie. But this is no movie, this is our world, the world we live in.

If you are as concerned about the current state of the world as I am, then this coming weekend tune in to this discussion about what steps have to be taken as a humanity and as individuals, to facilitate positive change:

You can listen to a recording of this remarkable interview here:

The State of the World and Positive Change

Interview on national radio in Australia
Belsebuub talks with presenter Dave Callan on the state of the world today and what steps have to be taken as a humanity and as individuals, to facilitate positive change.

Location: Triple J Radio, Australia

Time: Sunday 25 January 2008, 1:30am – 2:15am (Melbourne time)

As individuals, we may think we can’t change the state of the world. But we can bring about a positive change in our own life, and in our relationships with the people in our lives. We can lead a more spiritual life, and together we can change the state of the world.

Change begins with the individual. What starts as a life change can lead to a global change. But if we do nothing, then nothing will ever change.

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In this 8 minute video, spiritual teacher Belsebuub talks about the horrible effects negativity has on our lives and on the lives of those around us, and the importance of freeing ourselves from these subconscious states.

No one likes to be negative, and everyone wants to be happy. But simply trying to have a positive frame-of-mind isn’t enough, particularly when we are faced with situations that are unfair, or in difficult situations like an argument with a loved-one, or when someone has done something that hurts us. In these difficult times we can be taken hostage by negativity and become trapped within it, despite our best efforts not to be.

In order to permanently free ourselves from these states and to truly find peace, a serious work needs to be undertaken on our psyche. You can find out more about the techniques to do this here.

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meditationimageYou hear the term ‘meditation’ thrown around a lot these days. While historically an Eastern tradition, it has become a popular craze sweeping throughout the Western world, and rightly so! There are a multitude of physiological and psychological benefits from meditation, including:

  • A deeper state of relaxation than that achieved during normal rest
  • A reduction in migraines and headaches (or any tension related pain)
  • Reduced anxiety, blood pressure and heart rate
  • Slowing of the aging process
  • Reduced fatigue
  • Improved sleep
  • Improved perception and memory
  • Stronger immune system
  • Enhanced emotional state

white-buddahMeditation is a state that is experienced when the mind is silenced from all thoughts. Normally we are bombarded with a continual stream of internal chatter, but through quietening our mind, a blissful inner peace and tranquility can be achieved.

There are various techniques used to attain this state, all of which fall under two main categories; concentrative meditation, and mindfulness meditation. Concentrative meditation is where you focus your attention upon a certain thing such as your breathing or heart rate, or perhaps a candle or a mantra. Mindfulness mediation is a relaxed concentration upon the present moment, allowing you to consciously perceive the environment around you, or to become alert to the inner world of thoughts and emotions.

Today I am going to talk about particularly inspiring meditation practice; visualization of a place. This is especially beneficial for people (like myself) who have an extremely high-pressure, busy lifestyle as it allows you to ‘get away from it all’ at no cost, without even leaving your bedroom!

With this type of visualization you are using concentrated imagination to vividly create a scene in your mind’s eye, incorporating all of your senses to really bring the visualization to life.

Now, I want to point out there is a very big difference between concentrated imagination and fantasy, although many people confuse the two. With concentrated imagination, you are directing the concentrated mind to consciously imagine, explore or remember something, which is a very active process. Fantasy on the other hand is a passive process, whereby you let the mind wander on its own accord without conscious direction. Fantasy strengthens the subconscious and does not produce the benefits of meditation, therefore is not recommended.

Concentrated visualization strengthens the consciousness, and as such also strengthens faculties of the consciousness (of which I outlined in my ‘mantras for awakening psychic facilities’ post). This type of visualization can yield unexpected information about the place you are visualizing, for example sometimes you can ‘see’ things in your mind’s eye that are actually there. One time I was doing this practice in my bedroom, using my back-yard as the object of my visualization. During it I saw a ladder leaning against the side of the house, something not normally there. Later when I went outside, the ladder was exactly where I had seen it in my visualization! At first I thought maybe it had been there for a while and I had recorded it in my subconscious, but I asked the person I was living with at the time, and they told me that they had in fact put it there while I was lying down because they wanted to get something off the roof.

THE PRACITCE.

Preparation:

It can greatly assist your visualization to study photographs or footage of the place you are going to visualize. It is even better if you can actually go there – take in all the details you can about your chosen destination. When you are re-creating the scene in your mind’s eye, you want to incorporate as much details as possible – you want to be able to ‘feel’ what it is like to actually be there using all of your 5 senses to make it as vivid as possible.

candles1Your meditation area.

As with all meditation practices, preparation of your immediate environment is important. Make sure your surroundings are neat and tidy – a messy room reflects a messy mind. Keeping your meditation area is in order actually assists you in the practice, believe it or not!

You may also like to light some candles, incense or essential oils to bring a mystical feel to your practice.

Ensure you will be comfortable – use pillows and blankets if necessary. You may choose to either sit up or lie down. Personally, if I lie down I find it more difficult to maintain concentration and I tend to fall to sleep, so I like to sit up with my back supported.

This is YOUR time, so make sure you won’t be interrupted. Lock your door and take your phone off the hook. If you are living with people, let them know you don’t want to be disturbed during this time.

If you have things on your mind, it can help to write them down before the practice so that you don’t have to think about them during it. The time you allocate should be dedicated to nothing other than your mediation.

Below are different variations of this type of meditation:

cottage1.  Visualization of a favorite place.

This can be a really comforting practice. Think of a favorite place, a place that is very special to you, perhaps it is one that makes you feel comfortable and happy, or perhaps it makes you feel inspired. Perhaps it is a place from your childhood – for me I like to imagine my Grandma’s house where I used to stay during my school holidays. Imagine what it is like in the sanctuary of your favorite place.

forrest2. Visualization of a place in nature.

Nature provides a particularly enjoyable setting for a visualization meditation. You could use a lush green forest, or a beautiful sandy beach – anywhere that inspires you! If you are longing for that special holiday, why not go there in your mind’s eye and take some time out just for yourself to relax and unwind. It could be a place that you have been to before, or perhaps it is a place from your imagination.

pyramids13. Visualization of a well-known landmark.

There are many wonderful places we can go to and explore with our mind’s eye, including significant landmarks. Some popular choices include the Pyramids of Giza in Egypt, or the Temple of Delphi in Greece, or perhaps Stone Henge in England, even our Solar System! It can be very useful to study pictures of the place/landmark to help you re-create the scene and imagine what it is like to actually be there. Also, some of these places hold a special esoteric significance, and to explore them with your consciousness could yield some surprising information that you weren’t expecting!

Guided Meditation.

beachTo help start you off, I have prepared a guided meditation using the 2nd method; visualization of a place in nature. You are welcome to download this free of charge. Due to the size of the file I had to separate it into 2 parts, so I suggest you import them as a play list into Windows Media Player so you can play them successively without interruption – just right-click on each link and select ‘save link as’:  Part 1 & Part 2.

The setting is a tropical beach, and I will guide you through a relaxation, and then begin to guide your journey. The recording goes for approximately 15 minutes in total, after which you can continue with the visualization on your own.

ENJOY!!!

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