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This is a very simple video that speaks volumes to me. The simple imagery of life stirs up SO many unanswered questions within myself.

We can only can find the answers for ourselves… but this book is thought provoking; both in the questions it poses and the answers it presents to some of those questions.

It is up to us to verify the answers for ourselves… but it all begins with reflection. Life is something worth pondering upon!

(An awesome book, a winner of the Best Books 2009 Awards according to the Book Review site USA Book News. You can purchase it on Amazon, however it is soon to be available as an ebook for free download!)


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crossreflectionEaster is one of the most significant events in the Christian calendar, and it is a spiritual and reflective time for many people throughout the world.

This rings particularly true for me. Easter is a profoundly significant time both personally and spiritually to me.

My Mother was killed on Easter Saturday, 12 years ago. She just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. She was visiting a good friend of hers to give easter eggs to her children. This friend had ended a relationship with a man some two weeks prior, and it just happened to be the day that this man turned up at her house with a gun.

My entire world collapsed that day. I will never forget when the police arrived to tell us what had happened to our mother. My brother and I were still teenagers at the time. Words simply cannot describe how horrendously painful that time of our lives was.

One of the saddest times for me was about a week or so after the funeral, when all the flowers died. All week, the house had been filled with the perfume of beautiful bright bouquets and cards of well wishes and it was comforting.

But then all the flowers wilted and died.

And I threw them out, and the house was empty and bare.

And the phone stopped ringing.

And the world moved on.

But my world was left in pieces.

When a significant tragedy occurs in your life, you really stop and question many things. I had always been spiritually inclined, even as a child I would ponder things like why I was here? What was the point of life? What happens when you die? What is beyond this life? But when something like this happens, you ponder these things profoundly.

Why did this happen? Why Mum? Why me? Where did she go? Does she even exist anymore? What’s the point of even living? Do you just die and then it’s all over, that’s it? Why even bother? Why, why, why?

I had no answers to these questions, and in the months (even years) following her death I spiraled into a dark depression. I developed post traumatic stress disorder, and at night I would be gripped with irrational fear that someone was going to come into my bedroom and shoot me. Sometimes this was accompanied by auditory hallucinations of footsteps coming up the hallway, it was terrifying. In the few hours when I would finally fall to sleep, I was plagued with horrific nightmares.

The worst part was waking up in the mornings. When you wake up there is a few seconds of peace as you transition from the dream world to the physical world… but then it hits you – you remember she is dead, and it’s like experiencing the loss all over again, every single time you wake up.

I turned to drugs and alcohol to try to escape the pain and sadness inside me. I didn’t want to live anymore, and wished that I could just go to sleep and never wake up. I thought about suicide a lot, and the only reason I didn’t do it was my belief in reincarnation; I figured I must be here for a reason, and if I was to kill myself before I actualized that reason, then I would be brought back again to re-live these experiences (or their equivalent) until I ‘got it’. Well I couldn’t bare the thought of having to endure this pain from the beginning all over again, so that wasn’t an option for me.

This was the beginning of a turning point in my life. I had became so disillusioned with this physical world that it forced me to take a serious look at what was beyond it – to yearn for understanding, to be able to make sense of this nonsensical existence. It was the beginning of my true spiritual yearning.

They say everything happens for a reason, and I am a firm believer in that. But I don’t just want to believe, I want to, need to, fully understand and comprehend – I need to know the reason. I need to know why.

Things eventually got better, slowly. I got better. I got stronger. I moved on, just like the rest of the world had.

And then some years later, I found Gnosis. This changed everything. Finally, I was given the tools to be able to get the answers I had been yearning for. I learned about astral travel and started to have out-of-body experiences, directly verifying that I am more than just this physical body. It’s one thing to believe something, but it is a whole other thing to experience it and know for certain, it completely changes your perspective.

I started to learn about death, and have directly verified part of what happens when we die by investigating my mother’s death in the astral realm (you can read about that experience here). After that experience I understood the attachment I had to my mother’s personality, which is only a temporary thing, and I was able to let go of that attachment to her completely and truly move on. (Attachment in itself is still something I have yet to conquer, but I gave me an understanding that will help me to get there).

I know the Divine exists – I have had direct experiences with my Divine Parents and have received spiritual teachings in the astral – direct personal spiritual teachings, not something preached to me in a church that I must ‘believe’ in.

I have been given the tools to eliminate negativity within myself – those dark days of depression and sadness that crippled me need never do so again. I am no longer a victim of life’s circumstances; now I now know how to use life’s events to my advantage to change what is within myself. I am a long way from eliminating these aspects of my psyche completely, but now I know how to fight them, and it is SO liberating to not be a helpless victim to them.

I have learned a lot about myself, what is within me, about my psyche; my consciousness and my subconscious. I realize that for most of my waking life I am asleep (psychologically speaking), and I have learned what I need to do to ‘wake up’.

And I know why I am here. I know my purpose. Life is completely transformed when you know the point of it all.

All this, and I have barely begun to scratch the surface. There is SO much more to life than just this physical world which we temporarily find ourselves in. Just think; in 200 years from now, everything you hold close to you will be gone. Every person that is in your life now, your family, your friends, the people you love, your children and grandchildren, even your enemies, will have died. Everything you own and value will be gone, and everything you think is important in your life right now will be irrelevant. This physical world is transient, it doesn’t last. There is much more to life than just this.

So, it is Easter once again. Time keeps moving on, and each year seems to be passing faster. I have a lot to reflect on, both in terms of where I have come from, and where I am going. While I now know my life’s purpose, I have a lot of work to do get there. And time won’t wait for me. I have come a long way, but I still have a long way to go.

This is what I am reflecting on this Easter.

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imagesThe astral plane of the 5th dimension is a very real place.  Every time we sleep we leave our physical body and go there, only normally we are unaware of this process.  I explain more about what astral travel is here.  Today I’m going to talk about what to expect when you consciously astral travel.

Everything that exists in the physical world also exists in the astral.  So if you were to project into your bedroom for example, it would look just as your bedroom would normally look in waking life.  At least it should.

However sometimes our astral experiences are not always objective.  Because of the state of our psyche, we may project images onto the astral plane from our subconscious.  These subconscious projections can cloud the reality before us and distort our view of what is really there.  These images are the things that form our dreams, but even if we are ‘awake’ and conscious in the astral realm, sometimes they can still be apparent.

The clarity of our astral experiences correlate to how aware we have been during the day.  By ‘aware’ I mean grounding yourself in the present moment with your 5 senses, focusing on the activity you are doing at any one time and breaking the continual stream of thoughts that keep us in a perpetual day-dream.  When we are aware we activate our consciousness, which gives us the ability to truly perceive what is real.  If we have been stuck in our mind (subconscious) during the day, then this will continue when we go to sleep at night and cloud our perception.

To have truly objective and clear astral experiences, a serious work needs to be undertaken on our psyche to eliminate subconscious elements and increase our consciousness. But in the beginning, we need learn how to discern what is real and what isn’t.  To do this we need to develop our intuition.

Intuition is a faculty of the consciousness.  It is that ‘hunch’ or ‘gut feeling’ you get about something that is beyond the rational mind. With intuition we can tap into information from higher dimensions and become aware of things we would not otherwise be able to know.  By developing intuition, you can begin to use it as a tool to discern wether what you are seeing is real or just a projection of the mind.  In a previous post I talk about how to temporarily activate intuition (and other psychic faculties) with mantras.  You can read about it here.

Because the astral is a real place, you can meet up with other people there.  If they are also having a conscious astral experience then you can interact with each other, and when you return to the physical both have recollection of the experience.  If they are asleep and dreaming however, they may or may not be able to see you through the subconscious projections of their mind, and may or may not remember you in their dream (depending on the level of lucidity at the time).

Matter behaves differently in the astral than it does in the physical world.  So over there you can fly and go through objects such as walls etc.  You can breathe underwater, and in outer space!  You can’t hurt yourself like you can in the physical, after-all your physical body is safe and sound in your bed.  As such there is no need to be frightened.  In fact, big emotions like fear or excitement will simply cause you to return to your physical body and cut your astral experience short.

silver-chordYou don’t have to worry about not being able to get back to your body – there is a silver chord that connects your astral body to your physical body, although I have never seen it myself (but I haven’t looked for it either).  Because of this chord there is always a connection between the 2 bodies, and if you want to go back to your physical body you just have to will yourself there and you will return instantly.  You will actually find it is much harder to stay in the astral than you think!

You can travel pretty much anywhere you can think of;  to other countries, or even other planets in the solar system!  There are various ways you can travel in the astral;  you can walk just like you would here, but it can be much faster to fly.  Alternatively you can visualise a place and find yourself there instantly.  My favourite method of travel is to ask my Divine Mother to take me somewhere.

We have higher aspects of our own inner being, our Divine Mother and Father, who help and guide us throughout our lives.  Unfortunately, most people are completely unaware of this and don’t develop a relationship with their Divine Parents.  But know it or not, they are always there for us.  So when I want to go somewhere in the astral, I ask my Divine Mother to take me, and as I do so I take a little jump.  It feels like I am being pulled backwards at incredible speed and in a second or two I find myself at the destination.

In addition to our own being, there are other spiritual beings that reside in the astral, beings that have awakened spiritually.  These have been depicted throughout history and in religion as “Angels”.  Spiritual beings (usually your Divine Mother or Father) can give us spiritual teachings, both during conscious astral experiences, and in our dreams.

The language of the astral is symbolic, and as such teachings are usually given symbolically.  We may be taken to a place that has significant meaning for us, or alternatively objects may be placed in front of us for our learning.  Again, intuition is required to decipher what the symbology means, and to determine if what we are seeing is an actual teaching and not a subconscious projection of the mind.

There are some universal symbols, however it is important to understand symbology can be very personal to the individual, and what may mean something for one person in that particular context may mean something different for someone else.  As such it is imperative to develop your intuition to be able to understand what a teaching means for you.

It is also important not to share your teachings with anyone else;  they are for you and you alone, specific to your personal development and understanding.  A level of trust is bestowed upon you when you receive a teaching, so by sharing the information with someone else you break that trust and may not receive anymore teachings for a while;  until such time the spiritual beings determine you are again worthy to receive them.  So don’t share even your dreams with anyone.  If you really need help in deciphering your dreams, the book “When I Go to Sleep” touches on the esoteric meaning of some symbols and numbers.

If you still don’t understand them, write them down so you can revisit them later.  It is important to record your dreams in the morning, as there can be significant spiritual teachings there that may not make sense now, but will after some time.  I have had dreams that initially made no sense whatsoever;  however 2 years later I revisited them and was amazed at the richness of the teachings there.

One time in the astral I asked my Divine Mother for a teaching, and as I did so I took a little jump.  I was immediately taken to a significant place from my childhood, and in the room something was placed there for my learning.  On the table there was a clock radio, so I paid special attention to the numbers shown on it as my intuition told be that the numbers were part of the teaching.  Then I began to doubt myself, and thought that maybe I was being shown time (seeing it was a clock radio), which can have a different meaning to ordinary numbers.  Then the numbers on the clock radio started flipping over, and another time was shown.  I carefully memorised both sets of numbers, and when I woke up I immediately wrote them down.  When I added each set of numbers up, and they added up to be the same number.  This showed me that my intuition (that initial ‘hunch’ I had) was correct and I was being shown a number with a significant meaning, and not time.

In addition to spiritual beings in the astral, there are some negative beings as well.  It’s a bit like how in real life there are some good people and bad people, the same applies there.  There is no need to be frightened of them though, they can’t physically hurt you.  If you run into one, they may try to scare you or to trick you to prevent you from gaining the valuable spiritual knowledge you can get there.

One morning I was lying in bed.  I was actually in the astral although I didn’t realise this, I thought I was in the physical.  There was what looked like a dark shadow in the corner of my bedroom, and when I noticed it, it jumped out at me and sat on top of me.  It looked like black smoke, it didn’t really have a shape as such, and it had this hideous, chilling laugh.  I couldn’t move and it felt like I was paralysed (this can happen when you haven’t fully split and are half in the physical and half in the astral, and these entities can sometimes use this time to take advantage of the situation where you are most vulnerable).

I had never heard of negative entities before and I didn’t know what it was, and I was terrified.  My intuition told me that this thing was just trying to scare me rather than hurt me, and its laugh was taunting me.  Despite this I was terribly frightened and struggled and tried to scream, and at that moment I woke up in my bed in my bed and the thing was gone.

Again, the book “When I Go to Sleep” explains about negative entities in more detail, and it also contains some recitations you can say that dispel negativity and make these things go away.  Now that I know that they can’t hurt me, and being equipped with the ability to dispel them, I have no fear of them.  There is really nothing to be frightened of in the astral, you are very safe there (as safe as sleeping!)

The best part about astral travel is that you can verify things that you would have no way of verifying in the physical, things like what happens when you die, past lives, the purpose of life etc.  You can get direct spiritual teachings about things like karma, creation and the wheel of life, which are things I am currently seeking to investigate myself.  In another post I talked about how I’ve investigated part of what happens when you die, and you can read about the experience here.

With this wealth of hidden knowledge to be gained in the astral, it is important to use your time there wisely.  It takes a lot of effort to gain astral experiences, so instead of wasting them flying around aimlessly and having fun (which may be useful at first in becoming familiar with the astral) you would be much wiser to use your time to seek real knowledge!

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Concentration is the key to astral projection; if you can focus your concentrated mind on one thing at the moment sleep arrives you will consciously split from your body, it’s that simple.

Actually it’s not simple at all, it just sounds simple! Being able to concentrate and focus on one thing is harder than it sounds, and being able to hold that concentration as you fall to sleep is even more of a challenge. The good news is it is a skill that can be learned and gets better with practice. And being a learned skill means anyone can do it, even you!

One of my favorite practices to project is concentration on the heart, and I projected with this practice earlier this week. Not only does the heart provide a steady, rhythmic beat which you can anchor your attention upon, the heart is said to have a special esoteric significance as well (which I will get to a bit later).

When I first began this practice I found it very difficult to perceive my heart beating at all, but with perseverance it now comes easily to me. If you have difficulty yourself, here are some techniques that may help:

  1. Make sure you begin with a really thorough relaxation. The more relaxed I am the easier it is to perceive my heart, so I make sure to really focus on relaxing my body and removing any tension before I begin the practice.

  2. If you can’t perceive your heart at first, take a few deep breaths – this stimulates the heart and increases the intensity of the beats.

  3. If you still can’t perceive the heart, then simply imagine the heart beating inside your chest until you begin to actually perceive the beats.

  4. Look for the pulse in other areas of the body such as the finger-tips. When you become aware of your pulse, combine this with your imagination of your heart beating until they become one.

Once you detect the beating of your heart, focus your full attention on the rhythmic beats. Gently hold your attention there and if thoughts arise then let them go and return to the rhythmic beating. This is a soothing, relaxing practice.

There are some variations to this practice. You can either focus just on the heart itself, or you can focus on the pulse in different areas of the body. You can keep moving your attention all around the body detecting the pulse as you go, until you can feel your whole body pulsing.

You can also combine this practice with a visualization of the heart, exploring what the heart looks like, it’s color, its texture, its various chambers, arteries and veins and how it works (you may like to study some pictures of the heart to assist with the visualization). Keep your focus squarely on your heart until you project.

The Heart Chakra.

The heart chakra is one of 7 major chakras (or energy centers) of the astral body, and each have their own corresponding psychic faculty.

As the name suggests, the heart chakra is located in the center of your chest in the area of the heart. The psychic faculty related to this chakra is intuition, the faculty more familiar to the majority of people, and certainly a handy faculty to have! Intuition is that hunch you get, that subtle feeling that tells us information that is beyond the rational mind. Intuition is also essential to correctly interpret dream symbolism and to understand what dreams mean.

The heart chakra and its faculty of intuition can be temporarily activated with the use of the mantra ‘O’. A mantra is a series of sounds, vowels or words that have a vibrational affect upon us. Just think about the affects various sounds can play on our psyche – consider the soothing sound of a meandering stream, compared to the agitating sound of a car alarm!

The Mantra ‘O’ is pronounced as ‘oh’, only elongated; ‘Ooooooooooo’. You gently inhale through the nose, and as you exhale through the mouth you pronounce the mantra. You generally start out loud, and gradually take the mantra internally. (If you are practicing this in a group you don’t need to be in time with each other).

At the same time as you pronounce the mantra, you can visualize the chakra spinning. It spins in clockwise direction, lying flat like a plate on a table. You can either visualize it as a glowing disc, or as a lotus flower with 12 petals. It is represented by the color green, so you may like to incorporate this into your visualization also.

To permanently activate this and other chakras, a serious spiritual work must be undertaken (more about this gnostic work can be found at Gnosticweb).

The Esoteric Significance of the heart.

God as Father is Wisdom. God as Mother is Love.
God as Father resides in the eye of Wisdom…
God as Love is found in the Heart-Temple…
Love is infinite tenderness… love is the life that beats in every Atom as it beats in every sun.
…Love is felt in the depths of the heart.
– Samael Aun Weor

We get assistance with our spiritual work from spiritual beings, and the ones that work most closely with us are our own Divine Parents, our Divine Mother and Divine Father (the female and male aspects of our being). Our Divine Mother teaches and guides us, helping us through the psychological gymnasium of life, while our Divine Father offers us protection. It is also our Divine Mother that has the power to destroy egos.

We can see numerous depictions of the Divine Mother in the various religions – the Virgin Mary in Roman Catholicism, the Goddess Kali in Hinduism, Isis in ancient Egyptian religions, and many Pagan religions have a Mother Goddess, just to name a few.

When in the astral, you can ask your Divine Mother for a spiritual teaching as She knows what we most urgently need to learn. If I want to travel somewhere, I usually ask my Divine Mother to take me, and as I do so I take a little jump. When I do this it feels like I am being pulled backwards at great speed and *poof* I am instantly there.

An atom of one’s Divine Mother is said to be located in the heart. I like to use a visualization of the heart as a spiritual place to get touch with my Divine Mother.

There are two variations on this practice. One is to visualize the heart as a temple that you can explore and inside find your Divine Mother. The other is to visualize it as a beautiful garden, and in the middle of the garden a Divine Lady is seated on a throne. I like to incorporate these visualizations together; I begin by focusing on the beating of my heart. Once my mind begins to slow and I go deeper into the practice I visualize my physical heart. I explore my heart in detail, then I make myself very small and go inside my heart. As I get to the center there is a spark of bright white light, and I go into the light and find myself in a bright, beautiful garden, and at the center of the garden is a temple where I can find my Divine Mother and speak with Her. It is important to incorporate all your senses while doing this visualization.

While I have successfully projected by concentrating on my heart itself, I have yet to project while visualizing my heart as a spiritual place. However there is much to be said about this practice even if you don’t actually project – aside from this being an amazingly beautiful practice, in deep meditation I have been able to connect with my Divine Mother and gain valuable information. It has also helped to build my relationship with Her.

But I think it would be AMAZING to actually go there in the astral, so this is something I am going to keep working on!

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