Archive for the ‘Egos’ Category

I wanted to share with you this amazing powerful teaching given by Edith Pritchard of the Gnostic Movement. Edith describes the effects of the egos upon us, and describes a practice called the analysis of an ego (which is a extract from the meditation of an ego, a cornerstone of Gnostic practice).

Egos are energies that drive thoughts and emotions, like anger, negativity pride, jealousy, sadness etc. Generally when we think of the term ‘ego’ we relate it to pride. However in this context pride is just one of many different ego states.

This teaching looks into the cause of our mysteries, sufferings and pain, the source of our problems. It explains what takes away our peace and happiness, and how to glean the information we need to be able to work to towards achieving lasting peace and happiness within ones self.

This valuable teaching is knowledge of ourselves. Understanding of oneself leads to a deep and profound knowledge, which is Gnosis. The word ‘Gnosis’ is a Greek word for knowledge, but it is not like book knowledge that you get from reading or studying something external (which is information). Gnosis refers to knowledge through experience.

The is the type of knowledge that the ancient Gnostics practiced for centuries, an inner knowledge that allowed them to experience amazing things. It leads not only to a knowledge within ones self, but to the knowledge of the All, and we use this knowledge for a Spiritual transformation.

Enjoy the lecture and the guided meditation practice, which includes the powerful mantra ‘Gate Gate Pāragate Pārasamgate Bodhi Svāhā‘, used for quietening the mind.

(If the video doesn’t load for you properly, you can also watch it HERE)

Vodpod videos no longer available.


Read Full Post »

2 wolvesOne evening, an old Cherokee Indian told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.

He said, “My son, there is a battle between two wolves inside us all.

One wolf is Evil: It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority and ego.

The other wolf is Good: It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.”

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather:

“Which wolf wins?”

The old Cherokee simply replied:


“The one you feed.”


~ author unknown

Read Full Post »

gatheringstorm_1It is said that ‘pride makes us stupid’, in that it clouds us from seeing things objectively and distorts our perception of the way things really are.

Through observing myself, I have seen that when my pride has been bruised, it sparks that little voice within that likes to argue, justify and self-talk it’s way through to the delusion of being right. Further, there’s a certain pleasure that comes from this internal dialog that is really hypnotizing, and it takes a lot of effort not indulge it.

This is something that I have been battling with lately. ‘Hurt feelings’. And I have seen just how ugly that little voice within can be, internally lashing out with a ghastly negativity towards the perpetrators of my perceived grievance.

This is where the buck must stop with me. Regardless of the circumstances I find myself in, I must not allow this negativity to manifest.

A Great Teacher once said that negativity permeates though the higher dimensions and actually does harm to others (and ourselves), even though we can’t see it. It’s a grotesque, monstrous pollutant that is absolutely toxic, and if we could only see its ugliness then we would see we have an urgent responsibility to keep our feelings in check.

Whether I am right or not it is irrelevant, so the little internal voice that wants to convince me that I am is a treacherous deception. That voice that tells me how justified I am is a lie.

The truth is, the situation presents me with a choice:

One one hand, I have an opportunity to see this ugly monster within and work towards eliminating it. In that sense, the situation is a gift, a blessing to which I should give thanks.

On the other hand, I can indulge this ugly monster within, and feel justified in harboring the destructive, harmful vibrations of anger, hurt and negativity, deluded that I am right. In that sense, the situation becomes a curse.

Each moment, we have that choice.

Some moments it seems I am winning this battle, some moments (more than I would like to admit) I am losing. But I have to keep fighting from moment to moment, for there is too much at stake. I don’t want to have this toxic monster within me any more.

Read Full Post »

wedding ringsI got married a couple of months ago, and I also moved countries to be with my new husband! Yes this has been a big change, and the reason for my temporary hiatus from blogging. But as things are settling down it seems I am back 🙂

Marriage is a wonderful thing; it’s a partnership that creates a marvelous opportunity for learning and for inner change.

I have found some interesting things since being married. In particular I can see how my own inner states directly effect my husband’s reactions to me; in that sense he is like a mirror for what I have going on within.

This morning was a good example of this. I was mildly annoyed at something he did (which was really quite incidental) and it caught me off-guard. Instead of observing this negative inner state and applying the elimination technique that I learned, I acted on it and scolded him.

Not long after, it became apparent that I had stirred up frustration in him and his tone of voice became short and sharp. This intern stirred up more annoyance within me as my pride didn’t like being spoken to in that tone of voice…

…But then I caught myself and realized what was happening; we were both getting caught in a negative spiral, which was sparked by my initial mild annoyance. I was then able to apply the elimination techniques to the negativity that was mounting within me, and instead of further escalating the situation I was able to respond with love and kindness.

It seems to always be this way – as soon as I get any kind of negative reaction from my husband, I can reflect back and instantly see that this was sparked from something negative within me. He has become like a barometer for me to know how I am doing internally.

If gone unchecked this is how fights begin; with one partner sparking negativity in the other, which intern feeds more negativity back. The marvelous thing about this spiritual work is you can break that negative cycle. It gives insight into how these things work internally, and provides an opportunity to change. It gives rise to the ability to act in a more intelligent way, instead of being pulled along at the whim of these internal subconscious negative drives (‘egos’).

Hopefully I’ll be able to share more insights with you as I go along we go along!

Read Full Post »

dove_mainWhat does it take to get to peace?

Peace and tranquility within is one of the most precious things a person can have, and yet it can be so elusive. So how do we find peace within ourselves, permanent lasting peace?

I used to think peace was achieved by spending a quite afternoon curled up with a good book, or lazily walking through a park or lying on a beach in the sunshine. But that wasn’t real peace – a young family could come along with a screaming baby and any remnants of peace would be shattered, leaving irritation and annoyance in its wake.

If inner peace is freedom of the mind from annoyance, distraction, negativity, anxiety, obsession, etc., then that is something internal, it needs to come from within. If our external surroundings dictate our internal state, then lasting peace will always remain elusive.

Have you heard the saying “It takes a war to get to peace”? It was only when I began the inner work on myself that I gained an appreciation for what that statement actually meant. It takes an internal war on negative states within ourselves to achieve real, lasting peace; it is a battle of the psyche, a battle for consciousness.

In life there are so many difficulties we face. Life isn’t easy; it throws so many things at us; problems, stresses, tragedies…. young families with screaming babies…. And these events stir up different emotions and inner states within. We can either be carried along in the current of life’s turbulent waters, with our inner state at the mercy of what is thrown our way… or we can embrace life’s events as a means to learn about ourselves so we can change what is within – to move towards lasting inner peace.

This inner work has been such a blessing for me. Now that I am armed with the knowledge about how to go about it, I look at life completely differently – the struggles of life are now wonderful opportunities to face the darkness within myself, and by facing it I can change. I am now armed to fight that war, to get to peace.

Belsebuub recently released a video on Youtube that explains what I am talking about in more depth, how we face difficulties along the way in our spiritual journey and how we can use them to find inner peace.

He explains how the inner death of the egos, which is the removal of the different animal drives, such as anger, negativity, greed, fear, etc can lead to the awakening of the spiritual within….

VIDEO: Going through suffering and reaching peace.

Read Full Post »